I don't know what to call this..Just hurt I guess. Found out Monday my Dad's divorce is final and has been for a couple of months now. Of course he didn't tell me because he thinks I have enough to deal with of my own. Prob true but I worry about my dad he tends to keep stuff inside, he is not getting younger. 58 this year lots of stress on him the past three years. Cathy pretty much left him for someone else is what i think, after 18 years of marriage. she was seeing this guy before the divorce was final, that's pretty obivious uuugggg so frustrating makes me want to slap her not what God would have me do would just seperate me from Him and she wouldn't care so not worth it. She fights with this guy all the time, go figure leave a marriage of 18years because you are fighting and no longer get along to go fight with someone else you've only known for a little while. If you are reading this sorry but i need to vent and this is the way I'm choosing this time, unlucky you. She tells my sister that everyone can't have as good a relationship as my sister and her boyfriend. my sister is 17!! yeah the woman needs to grow up! and she wonders why i don't want anything to do with her. Lord help me to see her through your eyes, is my prayer lately.

Children

Children are so innocent. They come into the world and they love freely, they give freely, they don't think about what other look about, they don't hold grudges and then they grow up. Then it seems like we spend the rest of our lives trying to learn those things all over again. Hmmm.... I wonder when do we lose these things,when do we begin to see others through filtered eyes, and put conditions on our love ,on our gifts. Just something to think about.

Allan

Today I was very concerned about Allan, he is my good friend Sheila's husband, i have known them for years. Prob since Noah was a baby. Allan got hurt in a gun accident. Had surgery today, was scheduled for 430, didn't go in until 720, we don't know why. It was scary his blood count had gotten low and he was in much pain despite the morphine he was on. Once they got him to surgery all went well it only took half the time they told Sheila it would take. I am so thankful, I think that's when things caught up with her. God had him in His hands the whole time. Which I knew so why am I surprised?

Youth Camp

Recently, Shelby left and went to youth camp for the first time. She went to a camp called Snowbird. She has not been the same since she returned... At camp on of their outreach or missions was to go to a nursing home and just visit the people there. Shelby loved this, she told me about how cute one of the ladies was and how they painted the women's fingernails and story after story of the different people she talked to while she was there. As I looked at my daughter I could see a change in her, a light that i had not seen before, a passion in her eyes, a glow about her. She had a ball, my Shelby who I never thought would do such things as plunging 90ft down a mt. harnessed in a three man swing, go down a souped up zip line, go white water rafting down the Nantahala river in NC, Jump in a whirlpool(yes i said a whirlpool!) climb what basically amounts to an obstacle course all the way up a mountain, a real one, not what we people around here in GA call mts. So many things she did and learned not just physically but most importantly spiritually. She never ceases to amaze me.

Blog

It's hard for me to keep up with this blog sometimes. I write in my journal but I forget to put things up on here, plus I forgot my password. So I got a new one. My goal is to start blogging once a week. I love reading Noelle's blog and I know it must be frustrating to her that mine never changes. But more importantly writing/journaling is good for me, it feeds my soul. I can't explain it. You either are or aren't one of those people. So I have many things to catch up on....