Friday August 14, 2009

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL
I have mixed emotions about this day. First of all it is a half day, which is weird, we've never started on a Friday either. But after thinking about it, it did make sense.
THINGS I CAN'T BELIEVE
Today I walked my Shelby into the middle school. She went straight to her locker(which we had set up the day before)got what she needed and went to homeroom. No problem. Where did my little girl go? How is it that the day she came out of my body is as clear in my brain as if it were yesterday, and yet she is now a tween? This is not easy and it will get harder, but I know God has a plan for Shelby, just as surely as know that HE loves her way more than I am capable of and capable of understanding. I must learn to let her go a little bit at a time, one little finger hold at a time. Kind of like when she took her first step and I held her fingers and then the day came when I had to let go of that finger and let her go and she took her first step and she was fine, until she fell and I couldn't stop it. But she got back up and she will do the same now. God please help me to let those same(much bigger) fingers go now, help me to step back and be able to let her fall when she needs to, to pick her up when she needs it, and the wisdom to know the difference between the two.
Today Jeremy walked Nathan into first grade. He was so nervous. He got the same teacher Noah had. She is awesome and he will be fine, but as those of you know who have kids older, this is the first step to big kid land. They are no longer preschoolers or even kindergardeners, they are now officially elementary school students. And for some reason, once they hit elementary the time just flies, wonder if the school's clocks are the culprits? lol
Today Jeremy walked Noah into fifth grade homeroom. This is his last year in elementary, he is now top dog. Don't tell him that! He swaps classes this year, gets a locker, has more responsibilities(LOrd help me now!), and I have to let him go a little bit more. Why does life sometimes seem like a series of letting goes? But then I guess that's what life is from the day we are born, we are let go a little at a time on this journey we call life, and hopefully each time we get a little closer to God, until we finally go home. Noah will be fine, Noah will be fine, Maybe if I say it enough and pray it enough it will be true. No, I know it will be true.FROG!
Today we both walked Sydney into kindergarten. Her first step on the way to big girldom(yes it is now offically a word)! She is not sure about this thing called kindergarten, poor thing it hasn't hit her yet. School is not just all fun anymore, she will now do seatwork, homework,etc. Thankfully, she still get out at 12(i think i am thankful) ask me again around November!
Today I realized alot of things: Time is flying before my very eyes, life is short don't be stupid, time is a precious commodity that I can't afford to waste anymore of, God still loves me inspite of myself, He loves my children more than I could possibly imagine, this is going to be a wild ride( this thing called middle school), and I will survive-no better than survive I am going to LIVE OUT LOUD!!!