I am tired of the crud... can't seem to get it to go away. My head hurts, my throat hurts, I'm tired all the time.
Though I was miserable, I had a great weekend. We went to see Aaryan on Friday, it was hard for me to drive but it was worth it. Saturday, I wasn't sure I was going to make it back up Saturday to pick up shelby. Fell asleep waiting for Noah to be ready to be picked up from denver's house. As I drove I started to feel a little better. Went to Noelle's to get shelby and wait for Jer to come in from hiking on the trail. She was doing laundry so we just hung out and talked. I felt horrible by then. Jer came in and
I was ready to go right then. We went home and I went to bed.
Didn't make it to church, I slept till almost 12. then laid around all day. today is a little better.

Divorce

Divorce is hard. That's just all there is to it. Hard on everyone involved. My dad is in the middle of one right now. So hard to see him go through something like this. I can here the loneliness in his voice. So hard to hear him that way. He stays at fire dept. until he can't keep his eyes open, then he goes home and gets in the bed. Because he can't stand to be in an empty house. Breaks my heart, makes me soo sad, I can't fix it but I know who can. MY Heavenly Father. Thank you Lord.

Shelby

Shelby had her first soccer game tonight. She is playing for the schools middle school soccer team which is a big deal. She played middle field, I have no idea what that means anyway her dad said she did great at passing the ball to her teammates apparently that is her job in this position. Her dad went to the game I was sick, Noah was sick and it was an hour and a half away. They won the game 6to0.
It was a special time for her and her daddy, after the game they went out to eat with the team. They had a great bonding time together.

Sick

It's been a long time since I've been this sick. I have vertigo, it is misrable, dizzy, nauseous, room spins. It's awful. So tired of being sick. Trying to recover from jaw surgery and now this. ugghh

33

Turning 33 was not that big of a deal for me. I am blessed. I had another year to love,laugh,cry,live,hurt,grow closer to God, closer to friends, closer to family, watch my children grow into who God would have them be,love my husband more and to just be. Thank you God!
I also had some sadness this time, my emotions were raw, remembering my aunt and having to put her to rest on my birthday two years ago. remembering that I missed my grandmother's funeral. Just some over all sadness. but I am blessed with such a wonderful family. My family took me to Cracker Barrel for supper, it was nice and later Jeremy bought me a cake and we all had cake together. they sang to me.
On Sunday my dad called and said he wanted to come see me for my birthday. That made me feel so special. We had made plans to take the kids to flat rock after the awana's race at church so he met us there. We walked around on the rocks and talked about when he used to bring me as a kid, it was fun to go down memory lane with him. The kids played on the playground and had fun on the rocks. they loved having their poppa there and so did I. I miss my dad a lot, ironic because I now see him more than I ever have. I worry about him, I don't like the fact that he is alone so much of the time now. I worry about him, he is getting older and I don't like it. I love him now more than ever. I am so glad that we have this new relationship now, I have been looking forward to this my whole life and I am enjoying it!

Rascal Flatts

I can't wait until Friday!!! I get to see Rascal Flatts in concert at the civic center, it's my bday present. Donna is going with me, we are going to make it a girls weekend! I think I will hang out with her on Friday-concert is at 8pm and hang out sat too. Think maybe we will hit some thrift stores and antique shops. Been looking forward to a girls weekend for so long, i can't wait!

So much going on

It's been so long since I've blogged, I actually miss it! There's just something about getting my thoughts out, don't know how to explain-it's theraputic though. Things have been so crazy lately. I think the surgery helped, still some lingering pain but not near as much as I had. hopefully the rest will go away soon. Have to call the Dr. today and schedule post op/ that should be tons of fun!